Chronicles of a HeadCase.

HEY! I’m back. for now. I know but I don’t want to see it right now. I am still un-ready. Yet again, I’m hungover at work. I cannot be a part of this wheel when I am a part of a bigger one. I feel withdrawn today, gloomy like the weather here in palm beach… but also because I dissapoint myself. I think I have created a connection to a person I’ve never met. I figured out so much that I’ve felt all the pain that is beared. Top it off with my own depression and we have a formula for the shape I’m in. Gawd! I wish I wasn’t aware of how stupid I am. By studying people, I inadvertently studied myself so impartially that I am unattractive in so many ways. Ok ok… my mind is being pushy, the numbness of my brain weakens its ability to take a hold of that stream. I am sad for I have failed, wish I could have done more. But it will be never enough, as long as I’m here with you. I am weak today, so I will wear my best clothes. And when the sun comes out again, I will go get a tan or skinny dipping. lol.

~ by case on April 27, 2005.