Disenchanted
Look away… there’s nothing left here. I lack the strength to feel, let alone act. I can’t explain to you how tiring it is to pretend that i care anymore, or that i feel anything. This living has sucked the life out of me, and like an empty shell, all that echoes back to you these days are automated responses. Press 1 for english… What happened to me? i don’t know… i think i’ve been stumped from a series of my questions and now i lack direction and motivation because i don’t know where i’m going nor how to get there. When the illusion of purpose dissipates into a slippery answer, one that has no grasp and no definition… how do you move to the next stage of events. I would will a calling to come along, but i’m in no position to answer any calls… for i’ve been shackled once more in the slave chains of society. I want… need something, someone to distract me from me. If you look but only outwards, theres a tendency to be another shalllow sheep and if you look only inwards internally, there is a likelihood to ignore the world outside and create your own, in simplified terms… madness. The madman says "i’m not crazy, you’re all crazy". Its strange, but i think i’m starting to believe him. So with all my half witted answers, i have no yellow brick road back to kansas. While, the lion lacked courage, the tinman was missing a heart, and i can’t remember what the scarecrow didn’t have but i think Dorothy doesn’t exist. So click your heels 3 times and say: "Theres no place like home coz we’re lost in it." Or maybe we are home, but we just can’t see it.
Wow…your blog touched me right through the core. I actually felt your pain, frustration and bitterness and for a moment there, I was one with you.
Gie
Gie said this on July 17, 2006 at 3:23 pm
hi..i like the way you write,great blog.
Jerchen said this on July 17, 2006 at 5:13 pm
hmmmm sounds like youre lost. are u?
joramie said this on July 17, 2006 at 6:30 pm
And once you have walked the length of your mind, what
You command is as clear as a lading-list
Anything else must not, for you, be thought
To exist
And what’s the profit? Only that, in time
we half-identify the blind impress
All our behavings, may trace it home.
But to confess,
On that green evening when our death begins,
Just what it was, is hardly satisfying,
Since it applied only to one man once,
And that man dying.
- philip larkin -
ei,
… Keep peace with your soul,
with all its sham and drudgery and broken dreams
it is still a beautiful world.
Be careful. Strive to be happy!!!
Hehe… god bless.
Veronica said this on July 17, 2006 at 8:07 pm
Oh wow…
Princess said this on July 17, 2006 at 11:48 pm
Hmmn? considering the way you express yourself in your blog, its quite unbelievable that you cant find the things which you like best…or should i say what makes you really happy. Life always offers an option…pick the right one! act and fight for it…:-)
AngelKisses said this on July 18, 2006 at 2:44 am
life is full of option,choose the right one, wake up,and listen to your heart.
alice said this on July 18, 2006 at 4:07 am
tzk3…
wow…
wat a nYz blog…
i was touch’d …
d;]
HELEN said this on July 18, 2006 at 4:21 am
a very touchy blog….its a bitter and dark expression
Vera said this on July 18, 2006 at 5:00 am
You are in the world of EASINESS yet groaning for pain. Come on wake up and see the reality of our beautiful world then you will have a different view of life! LIFE is beautiful!!God bless You.
survivor said this on July 18, 2006 at 6:35 pm
u should be a writer.
Noor said this on July 18, 2006 at 7:58 pm
Believe me we are in the same position.
i lack direction and motivation because i don’t know where i’m going nor how to get there.
Noor said this on July 18, 2006 at 8:00 pm
hi how r u?can u b my friend?
nico said this on July 18, 2006 at 8:42 pm
scare crow wants a brain!!!
KinG said this on July 18, 2006 at 8:51 pm
Hai! My name is felicia.At this wedside see your photo so try to send the message for u,may i know u is from where people?
What is ur age? Working in where?
If u want reply the message to me u can send e-mail for me.felicia_2567@yahoo.com
Felicia said this on July 18, 2006 at 8:56 pm
hhhhhhhhwwwwwwwwwoowwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it touched me…. very well….
karen said this on July 19, 2006 at 12:51 am
maybe you need a friend… im here..
karen said this on July 19, 2006 at 12:54 am
hey… i accidentally read your blog..and i hope you don’t mind me posting a comment.. i like how you put your thoughts into writing.. don’t stop.
cheloy said this on July 19, 2006 at 1:23 am
i really impressed with ur words…..Life is a problem…after one case has been completed another will come… so jez undergo this life with smile… make it easy… coz the up and down of life must be accept as it comes….
khairullah said this on July 19, 2006 at 3:16 am
Any way have their destiny, maybe you think you are lost in direction but have you ever think any direction you choose, will lead you to the same way?
shyan said this on July 19, 2006 at 7:16 am
it’s indeed tiring pretending to care. when i asked, “how are u doing?” it’s not because i care what they were doing. it’s just that ppl expect to hear me say it…
Yean said this on July 19, 2006 at 7:19 am
i too feel the emptiness and the nothingness……
Big said this on July 19, 2006 at 9:36 am
Life may seem pointless.. but at the end of everything it is actually small pieces of stories and images, creating a mosaic of a bigger picture.. you’ll eventually see the bigger picture of your life, casey.
cheloy said this on July 20, 2006 at 12:50 am
Life just fulled of acting.
erotica said this on July 20, 2006 at 4:58 am
elow…….
Shiela marie said this on July 20, 2006 at 5:29 am
ako nga e, parang gs2 ko ng mamatay…
Diii said this on July 20, 2006 at 6:02 am
Well, just happened to see your blog, did u paint that painting? it looks kinda sad and keeping things inside. I believe that Life is Simple and there should be a way for each of us to go on!
Mandy said this on July 20, 2006 at 8:45 am
You seemed to live life to the fullest but yet, it sound so empty…that is so sad. Wish you can find the answer to fill that void
Joanna said this on July 20, 2006 at 3:34 pm
CYCLES OF LIFE
What is the purpose in life to be live ? Well everybody has a purpose to live in this world . This is a very simple question but theirs a lot of thing to explain , It depends upon the person who is affected this matter and idea that will happen to each and everyone of us .
From the beginning our parents mold us give us life and light to live in this world.
Our parents say that when we grew up we must be a successful and professional but suddenly was change ! unexpected things happened , you did not become successful and professional person , then who’s gonna blame for that ? The fact is , does everyone wants to put their life to become miserable ? There’s so many reason behind the scene and that’s what we call the part of our life .
We are a part of the masterpiece that we must continue to walk our path of ways in order to reach the goals in our life. There are various of thing’s that everyone really want to be and how they used to be . things that will happened that no one can explain what is going on that you are the only one who can explain what and why this thing’s you chooses better or worse for you . Till the day come and that is the end of our life.
NiKki said this on July 20, 2006 at 6:53 pm
Please share with me in dejava_18@yahoo.com
life is process continuity to make a choice/desicion to eveerything.
guntur said this on July 20, 2006 at 7:42 pm
r u sad ?
'Naughty HuskiE said this on July 21, 2006 at 3:49 am
cher up!circumtances alone do not make us happy or unhappy.it is d way we react to circumstance that determines our feelings.GODBLESS
Juvy said this on July 21, 2006 at 4:41 am
keep going oh…
isa said this on July 21, 2006 at 4:54 am
“Live each season as it passes, breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit and resign yourself to the influences of each. ”
(Henry David Thoreau)
Life is a journey filled with experiences, bad or good remember that they all happen for a reason and behind that cloudy sky lay a bright shiny day.
arief said this on July 21, 2006 at 5:52 am
wla lng..
Joana said this on July 21, 2006 at 7:27 am
Hi. Life really sucks sometimes… I guess, we all undergo that stage in our life… feeling lost. Have faith and accept the things the things that you cant change.. God bless
debbie said this on July 21, 2006 at 6:11 pm
hi! your emptiness touched a core deep within me…spoke right thru me. I used to feel that way too… until I started caring for others…. Yeah… you’re right you need something or someone to distract you from you… why don’t you try to shift your focus from yourself to others… to those who are hurting and more wounded… to those in the orphanage who never knew who or where their parents are…to those who do not work or live in a high-rise condo or office but those who live in the streets, shanties and dilapidated boxes… to those who do not have computers and internet (they don’t know how to read or write anyway, much less own a pencil or a pad paper to write on. come to think of it, they don’t even know where in the mountain of garbage could they get their next meal from… then you’ll know how blessed and lucky you are in this world. Perhaps, caring for others is what your soul is looking for? Perhaps something deep within or SOMEONE is calling you to DO SOMETHING for others…???????? ….because your soul might have felt you only cared about you….??? And you need to experience deeper joy and inner peace which caring for other brings? and disenchanted… i care that you’re feeling this way that’s why i’m posting this…
ruby said this on July 21, 2006 at 6:18 pm
nice blog!
bethel said this on July 21, 2006 at 6:39 pm
what a nice and touchy blog bro!god bless..
alma said this on July 21, 2006 at 7:07 pm
just pray, if u believe………………………
life is beautiful……………..
keep going………..
keep believing…………
i think ur great…………..
god bless
nina said this on July 22, 2006 at 4:53 am
halo!! i’m joemz can u be my txm8 i’m from phil. my no. is 09196729627
Laagan said this on July 22, 2006 at 5:23 am
it’s just a phase. Life is indeed beautiful. Open your eyes and dont think to hard. Stay safe and keep the faith, when times seems so dark and gloomy, maybe, just maybe, the new dawn is just around the corner.
marco said this on July 22, 2006 at 6:09 am
it is not an exageration of words to say,you are wonderfully made, appearing like one of the queens on the irland far-away near the ozone layers.oh ur voice is like the voices of the angels behold it suggest the voices of the good messengers far above the skies. call it talkertiveness or what have u;all i know is that it is one of the beauties of your life and also a gift from God in order to carry people along, getting them on the rigth mood, making them to foget the past and facing the future.sayang u are blessed .
Chris said this on July 22, 2006 at 2:43 pm
The way you exressed your feelings is what made your words plunge deeper to my soul. Hope you make your day right! God bless!
John Paul said this on July 22, 2006 at 6:01 pm
I just can say God bless u forever
ika said this on July 23, 2006 at 12:49 am
keep beleiving dat’z all ad u me ha! Sweet_leiyhen29@yahoo.com
leejane said this on July 23, 2006 at 8:54 am
Sad? u will later be happy.
Alone? u will later have company.
Crying? u will later smile.
Why do I say this?
Bcoz according to Newton, for every action, there’s always an equal but opposite reaction.
KaReN LoVe said this on July 23, 2006 at 9:07 am
hmmm…
how come everybody reads your blog and not mine?
i would pretty much say our topics are pretty common.
blogs are in a way,an outlet for those who have the gift of writing.
then again there are many others who type endless nonsensical rubbish.
All the best with your blog my friend.
julian said this on July 23, 2006 at 9:14 am
…there’s more to hope for..it is just natural to feel that,,because we are living in this game called life…nice blog..you really got my attention..God bless..
Zai said this on July 23, 2006 at 5:45 pm
shiiiiiiiiiiilllllll.. i cn’t think of 2 say?????????
diana jean said this on July 23, 2006 at 8:06 pm
yahh kpgod life sometyms…
kamukha u c rain…
jeanamor said this on July 23, 2006 at 8:30 pm
Just keep on holding to HIM and everything will be alright…just always believe…
jhulie said this on July 23, 2006 at 10:16 pm
exactly how I feel (is this possible with infinite combination of neurons?) during PMS episodes….
then you wake up after a few days wanting to bang your head against the wall for wasting time….
oh, just go on, friend; feel it, wring and squeeze these demons out the best you could…
lou said this on July 23, 2006 at 10:27 pm
I don’t know what had happened to u.
I can’t understand, why do u have to pretend on something?
I think every people will fell the same feeling like what u felt somehow.
But the point is, what can we do to beat “the living that suck our life” (like what u said) ??
Wake up bro.. !!!! Don’t let ur living suck ur life anymore.
Each of us only live once.
Do something worth for the living while the sunrise still in u.
Coz.., when the sunset comes to ur life, there is nothing u can do but regretting ur life n be laugh by “the living that had sucked ur life”.
Feliana said this on July 23, 2006 at 11:22 pm
sometimes i do feeling that way, emptiness is always around..but now i won’t be sad person any more..GOD bless me with this life,all the things that happend on us is a bless..all tears,all smiles,created to make our journey colorfull.. ( good blog keep writing pal )
triya said this on July 24, 2006 at 1:32 am
Guys, i’m not sad. Its just a moment in my brain barf.. don’t worry i’m not gonna hang myself just yet. Too many places i want to visit, but thanks for caring nonetheless hehe
Casey said this on July 24, 2006 at 1:41 am
Dear Casey,
I’m touched by your blog. I’m faced the same problem like what you have written in the blog. I have surrender my life unto Him and found myself after knowing Him-He is the great Man in the World. He is My Precious Sacrifices’ Jesus Christ. I dono what is your position is. But just want to tell you, if you have any problem, just open your heart and talk with Him…you’ll find the Answer. Is Free. No harm to try.
Can you be my friend? If yes, then send me your email address to my NonFriendster email address at akane_my@yahoo.com.sg. Then i’ll add you. To avoid “Junk” People.
Sorry to say that.
That’s all.
May the LORD bless you abundantly.
Shalom!
Michelle
Michelle said this on July 24, 2006 at 1:50 am
Great writing.
“Make sure you’re not missing the point of your life.”
Highly recommend the book “The Purpose Driven Life” by Rick Warren. As an outsider, you don’t have to pay attention to me. But. Nothing to lose. Cheers.
Kristal said this on July 24, 2006 at 11:03 am
hmmm… it’s nice. i think, what you need is love. Love answers everything. believe me. (tet220@lycos.com)
tetet said this on July 24, 2006 at 4:53 pm
ARR..
CAZ said this on July 25, 2006 at 6:05 am
i just want to say dat life is beautiful just trust your self ok,,,haja,,,and one thing put god in your life and yoy will see the joy!!!!
Rizalyn said this on July 25, 2006 at 7:54 am
Bitterly beautiful written….
-Lil'B- said this on July 25, 2006 at 11:48 pm
>>>When we were brought up in this wonderful world of ours, we have no idea on what we are up to. As much as we wanted to. But as a mere baby, we were raised and fed by our very kind and loving parents. And for that we must be thankful. They have devoted their time and effort changing our clothes, washing us and prepare milk for us to survive and to live healthy. They have done their best to give us everything we need as much as they can.
>>>As we grow older, we made our way making progress to different sort of things. We learn different kinds of words and we learn to sing do-re-mi’s. We have learned to play with our fellow cousins with our same age. And then there was school. At school, the teacher has served to be our second parents. They taught us all they know and they teach us the proper manners to become a good citizens. And gave us a good motivation for us to be more prepared for the life ahead of us.
>>>As we walk through our daily lives, we have met some personalities that lead us to the right way. Be it a friend, a teacher, our parents, our superiors at work, book authors, artists, subordinates, some acquantances and some that we just met while we were walking along the road. These persons are a great help and we should be thankful that we have met them. They are the ones who have made us, and put us to where we are right now. Without them, we can do little and we can know little about the facts of life.
>>>But the greatest guide that I’ve known so far is none other that the Lord Himself. Without Him, we are nothing and we can do nothing. He is the one who has lighted our ways and made a path to lead us to a fine and better future. As for wisdom, we may only know that all we have have come from Him.
Do you want to have a wonderful life ahead? Then you must know the guide that will lead you.
Richard said this on July 26, 2006 at 6:46 am
Thanks for inspiring — I do feel sometimes lost, lack of strenght, no direction for a place I wish to go …. I want to be truth — n share it to all — but I got stuck — keep on moving forward, hi there buddy!!
Dini said this on July 26, 2006 at 8:51 pm
This is a lyric i wrote a few years ago:
title: I WISH
I was born…by means.
It was sworn…by Him.
He was worn…”why be me?..”
Have we grown? Haven’t we..
thoughts rolling over,
Like a thunder in my brain..
Heights going lower,
I’m not scared cuz I’m the same
Don’t wanna be another man
I wouldn’t wanna be another me
I distrust…my deeds
I was worn by this
How we’ve grown, haven’t we
Here we go…again…
thoughts rolling over
I’m a thunder with my brain
I got off cradle, I’m a fiend
I got them break
Don’t wanna be another man
I don’t wanna be another me as…
a two in one
I’m full as one
Two as one
To belong…
fahmi said this on July 26, 2006 at 9:31 pm
Is this person an escapist from the mental world?? Don’t understand a fuck of what u wrote! Life should be simple, u just wanna the complicated one.
April said this on July 26, 2006 at 10:07 pm
cool.,.
briana said this on July 27, 2006 at 3:12 am
nice work…it made me think a moment (”,)
rHEa said this on July 27, 2006 at 4:25 am
everyne has already said wow.. you are touching..you’re blog speaks loud for you.. man, i don’t know how you are gonna appreciate this comment with what everyone has already said. you’ve got the palm lines of a writer. wish i could write like you do.. keep up!
yvonne said this on July 27, 2006 at 5:38 am
this is one of the greatest blogs ive ever read.. i really like the way it was written. i felt there’s a part of me that somewhat changed… i dont know how.. i dont know why.. you got me on it..
Macky said this on July 27, 2006 at 6:58 pm
I’m a stranger to you, but I read your blog. Sometimes, life is difficult and there’s always hopes and fears. But have faith, there’s always light at the end of the tunnel. I always remind myself that epecially in times of extreme sadness.
Sheila said this on July 27, 2006 at 8:48 pm
galing ah..whaa a nice shot..why dont you view us more
jojilyne said this on July 27, 2006 at 9:20 pm
elow!…i saw ur pic and i gues ur alcoholic person,drink moderately..ok… godless…take cares always!…
joylie said this on July 28, 2006 at 2:15 am
what is all these pain stuff?real pain is unfeelable.
David said this on July 28, 2006 at 7:15 am
can i add u?
?
jenalyn said this on July 28, 2006 at 10:01 am
hai…how do you do???
hErA said this on July 28, 2006 at 6:04 pm
You do have a different level of consciousness.But you see life differently. It’s actually a beautiful world out there. You just have to focus yourself with the good things that happen around u everyday. Try to appreciate everyday that the sun rises. Call some1 important to you. We are driven to live because of the people we share it with. Life is amazingly beautiful. I don’t see it difficult but rather a challenging journey. Always have a positive outlook. We make choices and sometimes those choices are not that important…It’s the ride that matters. Enjoy your life. Savor it. Sieze the day! I wish you joy…prosperity and abundance!
Claudine said this on July 28, 2006 at 11:28 pm
what the fuck are you talking about
Kalibo said this on July 29, 2006 at 11:14 am
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jose said this on July 29, 2006 at 5:01 pm
its ideal to say life is beautiful or there are good things out there that awaits you, you just have to make the right decision, for what you are now are the results of what you choose in the past… i guess its hard for people to accept the real things, that’s why they created ideal ones to give hope. i was moved by your blog, it made me sad but somehow i felt something that i can’t explain…
Gobi said this on July 30, 2006 at 6:23 pm
hello!
feel the same way you do.
what a boring and tiresome living it could be when you have finally lost the battle years ago.
when everything seems to be blurred and you’re in the middle of chaos..
mitch said this on July 30, 2006 at 6:32 pm
hi,i liked the way u played with words…its kinda cool thu it epresses lots of pain nd bitterness.i was touched nd admiring you at the same time…you r blessed with talent dude so dont juz waste it whining..cheer up nd count your blessings.life has lots to offer..juz take one at a time..u’ll never be lost coz God is workin overtime juz 2 guide you.KIP GOIN!
CARLA said this on July 30, 2006 at 9:10 pm
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jay clark said this on July 31, 2006 at 12:06 am
hi… how are you? can i add u?
HeLen GRace said this on July 31, 2006 at 12:24 am
hey! what`s up?
we`re here to be with you if u need too… hope u`re ok always! GOD is always with us… have a nice day!
Pinky said this on July 31, 2006 at 3:06 am
hi i just wanted to be your friend,can i be?
marie saint said this on July 31, 2006 at 5:23 pm
my name is marie saint,21 years of age,…hope to know you better
marie saint said this on July 31, 2006 at 5:24 pm
You are home, but it seems empty to you… Were you to fill it, but have not the will. Were you to have the will, but will not to a will.
Great writing, hope to see more, if you have the inclination.
One great thing to maybe distract yourself with, is humour. Humans are funny, when we struggle with subsistence, we complain but fight to the death.
When we don’t have to struggle with subsistence, we lose sight of purpose. Does that mean that we’re essentially empty shells?
Jay said this on July 31, 2006 at 10:58 pm
Am glad you’re still there ! Life is too short to be so negative and as you say “live it up” whilst you can.
Good writing though.
cherry said this on August 1, 2006 at 12:20 am
Hi,
Life really sucks sometimes, well can be most of the time but you have to get over with it bravely,I mean whatever issues in your life.Many comes and goes off by advising but at the end you the one who is facing it all and all depends on how strong you are.Deep down I guess you should be a strong person and I hope you give some time and move along with the flow and when you succeed, you will value highly all your bitter expriences cause lessons are taught and u learnt and improved.Don`t bother about those who hurt you,seriously.I felt the pain in your writing and I`ll pray all your anguish will vanish soon.Take care.
Nanthini said this on August 1, 2006 at 7:44 pm
HELLER 2 everyrone……
MaDivinaGrace said this on August 1, 2006 at 8:28 pm
I like de way u express urself…hope u will find happiness and purpose in ur life soon. God bless…..
Jessica said this on August 2, 2006 at 12:04 am
I do appreciate ur blog..coz u know what inm on that stage now!and i dont know what options in life should i choose nor pick!Just go!go!go!go! what makes u happy!
glaiza said this on August 2, 2006 at 6:12 pm
nice.. ds s my url:
christine said this on August 2, 2006 at 7:35 pm
you’re not alone..god is with u always!
BETH said this on August 2, 2006 at 10:01 pm
hi!!! i liked your way of freedom of expressions!!! its very nice and i know someday you’ll find your own happiness in life, the one destined to you and if not now u dont have to worry because you’ll never be alone Im pretty sure that life really sucks sometimes BUT HEY!!!! you have to go on and bring the best for life…… (’o') GOD is always there NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!! Believe me its TRUE!!! —–trisha_dice@yahoo.com
tRiShA said this on August 2, 2006 at 11:49 pm
expressing one’s self through writing is like seing yourself in the mirror and making emotions that you want to do, you just write down what you feel, not just to write what you want, just continue to know yourself, and always remember your not alone in the dark, their is always a someone in the light,thank you for the inspiration……
red_ashtig_0-7@yahoo.com
richard said this on August 4, 2006 at 7:39 am
casey, you need a glass or more of hard wine or whatever in order for you to wake up coz i think your in deep sleep, hehe. or you’re just half asleep & don’t want to get up & your mind is teasing you again.
Simply Red said this on March 20, 2007 at 2:05 pm