Temptation
Loneliness… the feeling that made you want to be with someone to begin with. But now, after so long being with him/her, you feel even more alone. Alone because the one who is supposed to understand you, doesn’t, Solitude because what you like and what you want doesn’t seem to matter to him/her, and Cold because the heat and warmth that was once there has been replaced by anger and resentment. Alone and afraid to let go, hope feels like a song you haven’t heard in a long time, and when that tune plays in your mind, you wander to somewhere long ago. Long ago where once you might have been happy?
Then, out of nowhere, temptation comes along in the form of a fresh and juicy fruit. The temptation is perfect in every way, glistening and reflective, warm and happy to the touch. This is truly a heavenly bliss where nothing can go wrong… at least it would appear so to you. The apples in the supermarkets always look perfect and fresh because they are waxed on the outside to preserve its looks on the outside. However, you will find that after the first bite, and enough time passed, it will lose its luster and and its flesh will turn from a glistening white to a dullish brown. So… then what do you do? If each boat we jump is from one slow cooker to another, whats the point? The point is if you have gone thru this once, twice, too many times… then you are the problem. You are not happy with yourself and that is why you pretend to be someone you are not, someone to make him/her happy, someone to do what is necessary to be accepted… wanted. Then that someone you pretended to be becomes a prison to who you are, so you run away to the next temptation after another, but only to find you are merely breaking our of your cell, but not your prison. and your prison is you.
wow i am the first to comment!
being alone doesn’t mean you need to be lonely…and you can find happiness and contentment in small things…not just finding it to another person…
there are always temptations to entice us…to destroy us, and i agree with you that if these temptations makes a prison of yourself…the problem is not that you are lonely it is just an excuse of a much greater problem…because the problem is yourself.
i love this article you wrote case, not because i am a prisoner of myself (LOL!) but because it is a reflection of everyday life for everybody…well, we all get lonely or depressed finding something somewhere, but in the end it is up to us in how we can handle this “temptations”… either in a negative or positive way…
Good or Evil? it is really our choice!
keep it up!
fatal-attraction said this on November 6, 2008 at 6:29 pm
Sometimes even when we’re in a relationship we feel alone ‘coz we failed to learn the art of loving unconditionally, instead we expect for something and some returns for what we give. Thus, temptation comes in a scenario where all of our expectation towards our partner fall short and for some they wallow on this emotion instead of finding again the lost spark when they first fall in love.
Nice blog Casey.
adjaranton said this on November 6, 2008 at 7:42 pm
What went wrong? Or what can go wrong when two equal sizes of temptations were once in synced? And it does not have to be two equal zezts of the hearts. Times were spent together and they found that they had the same flavors of the week. So it is not plausible to say that only one party is the problem.
It takes two to tango.
Cheers. =)
shinodas said this on November 6, 2008 at 10:03 pm
oftentimes does by loving alone hurts d most till we do end up not hurting anymore…. oftentimes even if we have that someone with us we find ourselves empty for no reason at all…
dameend said this on November 7, 2008 at 5:31 am
i have read your blogs…and damn!you’re ryt! i dont know you..peo nakakatuwa ung blogs mu…
dhenkhulet said this on November 7, 2008 at 11:37 am
Loneliness……… doesn’t mean u are alone :D… Cause we have GOD who always by our side, become our friend ( closer than our best friend ). God accept us as we can be….
Love………. is not mean FALL in love but MAKE love, love is mean Feeling, Understanding, Sacrifice, Acceptable, Attractive, Whole heart, n Faithful………….. GBU all…..
juli-aiai said this on November 7, 2008 at 12:58 pm
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naylaputri81 said this on November 7, 2008 at 9:54 pm
Well, i think you’re not talking about me??!! Are U??!!
^^
nina-cantik said this on November 8, 2008 at 9:32 pm
loneliness, it haunts you, when you are alone, it haunts you even more, when you are not alone.. and maybe, it, the loneliness, had became part of you..
mind you, the apples, they wear masks..
shinyin said this on November 9, 2008 at 12:08 am
great
u do speak of my inner thoughts.\
go!
carlomarasigan said this on November 10, 2008 at 9:01 am
i dont say that i understand you completely by just reading your blog. but somehow im also in this kind of situations now…
who said that man never felt hurt, who said that dont cry….
alone, loneliness, are just few that i can say bout myself…
i was looking for love once, but all those girls i have been with, just playing with me, ended up by cheating on me…
i was confused, if she is not meant to be with me, why do i have to feel that love toward her….
maybe i still need to learn…
anyway really nice blog…
i am arthuro, but now im changing name to ICE, like what i feel down inside….
be strong casey…
arthuro said this on November 10, 2008 at 9:30 am
WOW!! great blog..
hanya-sampah said this on November 11, 2008 at 1:36 am
great article! me also felt that way..
he’s with me but he’s not..
i can’t explain what im feeling right now..
but when i read your blog, now i think i know
where to stand..tnx!
boss15 said this on November 11, 2008 at 9:10 am
nice! when the world put you down and u feel like theres no to help you, u feel helpless,, look in Christ he is the way,truth and life. set yourself free from this world.
chrisforum said this on November 11, 2008 at 2:07 pm
nice metaphor with the apple. Hehehehe I think you are refering to those red waxed apples but not the “fuji apples”. (ok that was off.)
cookee-frailedljaded said this on November 13, 2008 at 4:32 am
Hey, its me again..Missed reading your thought-provoking blogs.. I’m happy to read another magnificent article which reflects life mysterious ways..Ahh, your thoughts come like a time bomb breaking the reality of one’s emotions into pieces as you unfold the truth that LIES within the frail human nature.. Keep it up Casey.. I am one of your avid reader and FAN at that..Coz you’re REAL.. You touch the CORE of man’s heart..in any way.. Gotta wait for your next article, k.. GOD bless you and your endeavors….
bestofgenaline said this on November 24, 2008 at 10:13 pm
people will never love us exactly the way we want them to…resentment will always set in because after sometime the spark that used to be there vanishes when reality sets in…and we are left with ourselves to cherish and nurture…it all boils down to one thing- love of self as being the vessel of God…truly temptation will always lurk around us luring us into eating crunchy apples and if your faith is weak…you will surely fall….and the story of the fall of man will be repeated over and over again…so yah as you said- be who you are…who you are supposed to be- Christlike…
sunsetzens said this on December 2, 2008 at 11:25 am
Our everyday life entails a series of decision making wherein in order to judge well we have to make us of our heart and mind. Above all, we can’t do these things perfectly without self-awareness. Can we be friends Casey cause you seem nice. Let’s shake hands!!!
mgdavmar-rn said this on December 4, 2008 at 5:53 pm
your blog entries are amazing! deep thoughts, wonderful ideas and so human.. keep up!
be bless!
meg said this on December 5, 2008 at 12:39 pm
I love your first paragraph of the post.
“Loneliness… the feeling that made you want to be with someone to begin with. But now, after so long being with him/her, you feel even more alone. Alone because the one who is supposed to understand you, doesn’t, Solitude because what you like and what you want doesn’t seem to matter to him/her, and Cold because the heat and warmth that was once there has been replaced by anger and resentment. Alone and afraid to let go, hope feels like a song you haven’t heard in a long time, and when that tune plays in your mind, you wander to somewhere long ago. Long ago where once you might have been happy?”
Yeah, right. The people whom we want to understand us seems not to care, and that is very heart breaking. WHen we are down and we look for the person who can best cure the pain, we find ourselves tormenting seeing that the person we want to comfort us doesnt even want to care.
uncertainlad said this on January 29, 2009 at 5:26 pm
i really like your blog!
solick said this on March 10, 2009 at 5:43 pm
Hmmm… the title is interesting, TEMPTATION. I bet many who happen to see this blog title would want to read more of it because the title itself is tempting. Many fall into temptation and people are mostly interested to read something that they experience personally. It is apparent that loneliness is within the person who made this (probably the time the entry was posted). And the people who will appreciate this the most could be dealing (or dealt) with it too. (Like me) Who on earth doesn’t experience it? everyone does! But everyone experiences happiness too, otherwise one will not recognize what’s sad and what’s not. It is a part of life we cannot escape from but we can choose not to keep! We are responsible of our own loneliness and happiness. We should not blame it on others. I particularly like the line that says if you have gone through those temptations over and over, then you are the problem. That just means you are not learning and you fail to understand what life is trying to tell you. Acting or trying to be somebody you are not is the saddest thing that could happen to mankind. Because that means we are trying to please someone else and forgetting who we trully are. we care too much what others think of us. Probably stems from self-doubt that we cannot achieve what we want when we stay true to ourselves. In this world, sometimes we need to compromise to get somewhere. But happiness comes from being happy of who you are and what you’re doing, what pleases you and others. Most of the time, loneliness is just a state of mind. We can alwasy choose happiness by filling our minds with all the blessings we have and eliminating the things that hurt us. Thinking that challenges makes us stronger and better individuals. I have my own and i chose to end it last not. And now I am anew and feel to have a very good disposition in life.
yldee said this on March 26, 2009 at 1:31 pm
sorry, i made an error at the bottom part. “challenges make us stronger and better individuals.)
yldee said this on March 26, 2009 at 1:37 pm
so true.
your blog posts are great.
liagebaanavrin said this on March 27, 2009 at 11:28 pm